Sunday, September 13, 2009


Today I saw a spirit. It was around 5'10", probably male. I only saw the silhouette though. He was walking up behind my wife. I tried to look around her to see who it was and he was gone. Interesting

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Tree Revisited

I went back to that tree. This time with an offering. I brought 5 pieces of cereal. I accidentally grabbed five and that is the perfect number for it. I walked sunwise around the tree and left the offerings one at a time. I made a mental speech about how each offering represented an element and how that element interacted with the tree. In hind sight, I didn't need to tell the tree how it uses elements. Doh'! I felt energy from the tree. It appreciated my offerings. I was under its branches but I tried not to invade its space right around it. The grass had died off there making a circle and I wasn't going to break that one.

Monday, August 17, 2009


I was given a gift by a tree. Perhaps a walnut tree. That is what one person said it was, just want to be sure. It was the gift of its fruit/seed. I felt I was supposed to have it and that it will be the start of a good relationship with that tree. I must now return with something for it. I will bring some dried herbs that it can hopefully draw some nutrients from. Then I will just need to spend a lot of time with it so I can get to know it better. Most of its leaf clusters were in groups of five. Its bark was mostly light gray to tan. There were some brown and dark gray areas. The leaf edges were serrated.

Monday, July 27, 2009


Today two robins made themselves known to me. One was munching on a worm in a bush and as I started to walk by, he ran out in front of me for a good little while. He dropped half of his worm, hopefully he found it later. Then, another robin ran out in front of me. When he eventually flew into a tree, we both stared at each other for a while. Then chirped at me, flew a little distance away, and chirped some more. They could have stayed hidden or flown away from me but since they chose to let me see them and to stay close, I figure that they were saying hi. Perhaps they wanted something from me but I couldn't tell exactly what it was. Hopefully my "hearing" gets better so I can talk to them easier.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Sharing energies with forest

On an outing with some family and friends I spent some time trying to share energies with the forest. I definitely felt energy, especially in my upper body. I hope to start getting communications and to be able to pick out whose energy is coming my way.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Finches and Bees

Today was a day for spotting finches and bees. I stood very still, longer than I usually do, longer than my ego wanted me to, and I finally saw that it was a finch rustling under a bush I was near. Once she was comfortable with me, she started calling to the other finches. Two boys stopped on nearby branches and one started talking back to her. They kept this up for a while. I had asked her to come out and meet me, and since she did, I thanked her. She seemed to say: "sure, no problem" in return.

Anytime I stopped around flowers, bumble bees were everywhere. They wouldn't show themselves if I walked by absent mindedly. They were the cute, fuzzy ones that are mostly black.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Coming up with my song

A lot of "shamanic" practices call for the making of songs. I can see the value in this but I always ran into the problem of feeling cheesy when thinking about singing a song in English. I had come across the idea of how language is limited and can't fully express reality but that also what language is based on, what it comes from, perhaps a psychic type of communication, can come much closer. The idea is that is what talking in tongues is trying to access. This actually makes sense to me. When listening to pow wow tapes I feel emotions being stirred in me even though I don't know what they are saying. It could be that not everything they are singing are words anyhow. So, in trying to not culturally appropriate I feel that I need to make my song, or songs, based on sounds that stir emotion and not ones based on English. It will address the cheesiness factor and be more meaningful. At least that is my take on it at the moment.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

New Tradition

I have discovered I have a tradition/ceremony/ritual I do whenever entering forests. I say something to the effect that I come in peace, seeking knowledge and communion and that I hope it is ok that I am there. Basically I am trying to set up relationships with those other than human persons who live there and who help to keep it going.


I have been having more dreams and longer ones lately. That is a good sign. It shows that I am becoming more open to non-physical data and to the activities of my dream self. I have seen various futures (probabilities) played out in those dreams. Trial runs to see what something would be like. I also have gotten an artistic vision of an owl creature. I am hoping to become even more conscious in those dreams so that I can learn/experience even more. I also hope to start having lucid dreams and out of body experiences soon. I just have to remember to put in the effort and to stay light heart-ed.

Monday, July 6, 2009


Now, of course everything is alive, but I have been noticing a lot more of what our species generally considers life. I have discovered a good number of spider species around my apartment and around town. I have been on spider's good side lately. I think it has to do with some empathy I had with a spider I moved out of our house. I hope to keep up this good relationship.